The light lazy on your doubts, water harsh on your skin. Wind playing her hair like a manic violin.

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Reruns of Manic-Depressive Episodes

Any admirer of the infinite has reason to be
suspicious of purpose on a night strung like
this, former infatuation enthusiast, seasoned
couch kisser this time rolling out of the scene
like some sort of cocooned animal spooked,
watching meteors get drunk and pass out
into the earthcouch with its shoes still on,
leaving streaks of mud and fire. Too many
reasons not to speak and hallucinating
musical triads, I taste the dust on my tongue,
taste your tongue in the dust, the flavor’s still
there but only activates with tearsalt and
nostalgia. It’s like honeysuckle but slightly
more real, a hair bitterer and we’re licking old
love letters instead of flower stems. He who
lectures others to bring spare tires always
gets stuck in the mud, and there was a
metaphor in there somewhere but I haven’t
cleaned it out in weeks and the light’s
burnt out. Guess we’ll have to wait for the
sunrise, and perhaps that’s the moral. 3am

by the kitchen window and I know that I have
lies to keep and 530miles to go before I sleep,
to guess precisely. I can watch this highway
all night and still never ditch my conscience,
like a little sibling mom said you had to bring
to the movies with your friends when you
were going to sneak into that R rated film
with the perfectly choreographed sex scene
and now you have to worry about tattling,
though siblings are diplomats susceptible
to bribery, it just gets expensive. I have
 
friends that will sleep through half a state
if you let them. I have roads that would
make great friends if you got off their backs
every once in a while, cooked Zatarans over
camp stoves in the gravel pull off, realize
that the middle-of-nowhere is something like
the wailing wall for farm animals. These
cows had one too many fallen pears, if you
catch my fruit. Attempt to isolate a sound
from the drunken chorus. Owl? Grouse?
Must be a bird. No, a ghost. It’s the spirit
of road trips past coming back to ask
for that gas money. You still don’t have it.
It will forgive you because it was a good
friend. You’re in short supply of those,
midnight couch surfer. Asker of Wi-Fi
passwords. Awkward petter of house cats,

outside this 3am kitchen window you can
see lights, but nothing Carl Sagan would
wax poetic about it. Just nightlights
for skittish city limits, galaxies that tripped
and fell out of the skyparty because they
got relatively too drunk but didn’t black out,
as you can see. “Shine on, you crazy
streetlamp,” you  hear yourself say in
lahjat al-medina, cigarette hanging listlessly
from middle and fore, elbows mounted
on the patio rail like gargoyles. I suppose
shooting is better suited for stars, but I can’t
see stars from my house, light polluting
my sky like the chemicals conducting
routine stop-and-searches at my synapses.
Strange, the alternative to addiction
seems like a sort of narcissistic joyride.
You need to get better for you. What did
 I ever to do deserve that courtesy, staring
down spit stained mirrors like a poker
scene in a bad western, hands black
with ash like breakfast toast, lipstick
smeared from cheek to childhood. Now
all of us cloaked in linen and dancing
like pious snowcaps, hearts soft
like butter left out in summer. Home

is where the heart shuts up and takes
its shoes off. Home is where you live,
so while you’re alive home is wherever.

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Hungover a Breathtaking View

I feel the revival creeping on
like humid air before rain.
It’s been drought so long 
the cottonwoods are pissing
just as yellow as me three
weeks deep in drunken dreams.
But we’re still waking green
and ready to sing, all the bees
in my stomach sting but I’m
still stuffed full of honey,
still licking fingers sticky
sweet with liquor and catching
breath between kisses like fishes
from the dark sea of stoops
without the porch lights to see
the snow tickling our noses.
Holy voices growling over
guitar strings on losing gods
and gaining lovers, hands
locked like grocery dumpsters
but hearts sharp like bolt
cutters, all our breath steaming
over the neon migraines like
morning coffee that smells
like oh god what have I done
but I forgive me yes and tastes
like wearing coats in spring,
be a little bitter but stay warm
like home on the knees. Next
time we’ll kiss ourselves
because we know exactly
how much tongue we need.  
We’ll drink some water, piss
clear and think clearer. Save
the yellow for our thoughts
and our coffee-stained teeth. 

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It is estimated that there are currently over a million words in the English language. Barring grammar rules, there are likely more possible sentences than there are atoms in the observable universe, and they say nothing new can be said or done under the sun.

http://www.languagemonitor.com/new-words/number-of-words-in-the-english-language-1008879/
http://www.statisticbrain.com/universe-statistics/
http://clas.mq.edu.au/speech/infinite_sentences/

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With palindromes, rats
become stars and we
throw our old tails
into the Truckee.
We write up critiques
on Genesis stories,
our fingers playing
in the front yard dust
like childgods in
hot heaven summers.
Yes, the criticism is
heavy handed, but
our palm songs weigh
almost nothing.

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We have a falling apart on our hands
& blood & other people’s skin underneath
our little fists & feel the consequence
of separation, feel the boredom, feel
the empty spaces we try to fill quickly
with anyone who could remind us
of the other with a little less risk
involved. I know what you do, how you
keep yourself amused & you know
my tactics of defense better than anyone,
how I scream out other people’s names
& let them see me in ways only you
used to & I could even love them
if I hadn’t already steeled myself
to loving you senselessly until
both our hearts fall out & we don’t
even care. It’s thoughtless, my love,
how I become infatuated in the mornings
& turn to anger in the afternoon
& maybe a tryst if anyone is around
which always feels like cheating
& so dangerously tasteless, the way
I get lost & caught up in someone else’s
desires as a distraction or in feeling
something for a man who I know
is too much like you, in the bad ways
& the good, but it is evening again
& in the evening I am always in love
& missing the way you would speak to me
in secret & thinking once again of the
softness of our tongues & the razors
I replaced them with, but my heart
is stubborn & my heart is strong & my heart
doesn’t give up until what is wanted is won
& what is won stays to be wanted into
the infinite possibilities of a future
where I will breathe a galaxy alive
onto your gorgeous lips.
Moriah Pearson, I’m not detoxing, I lied.
(via mooneyedandglowing)

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Anonymous asked: It was casual, only a few times & not for terribly long, unfortunately. I didn't find it awkward. It wasn't watching each other. We were searching for what we were hiding through our pupils.

Let’s talk more! Maybe we’ll find whatever we’re looking for. 

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Anonymous asked: I admire the thought of you & wonder if maybe you admired me too, when we had our casual conversations.

I wonder if the thought of me is anything like me. Hope so. I’d like to think that we shared admiration. What did we talk about? Did it go on awhile? Was it awkward? Were there long lapses in conversation, us both watching one another like cats waiting in window sills? I wonder too. 

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2.25.2014 3:03PM

vjoriqor:

Daggers under my fingernails

            Red eyes, red eyes, oranges and

Tangerines in your pocket.

A light on the edge; a light moving toward me,

And a quiet, certain emptiness.

Night sky: nothing and spirals of stars

Mostly nothing; mostly distance.

a melon shell, the guts balled onto the floor,

warm pink melon blood pooled in the bottom.

Tender streetlights, always red and covered

In layers of snow or dust or longing.

I don’t know; a map burned up.

Empty houses, empty valleys; a blinking light on the mountain.

I might be happy one day.

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Poetry is like an
overdressed man
at a dive bar, its
metaphors sit alone,
alliterations eyeing 
the other patrons
suspiciously.What
does it hope to
find here? Cheap
drink specials, mostly. 

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Luna’s flowerpot is full of sodium

and I was Lot’s wife, except I didn’t look back, I was walking backwards when I was leaving. The violation of the commandment was so severe that I couldn’t just be transformed into a pillar of salt; they turned me into a boy holding an orange pillar full of lithium. “Take daily until the tides in your chest let go,” they said and I’m drowning in the tears I ate from her face. I learned it was all the moon’s fault, and I tried throwing rocks at it,

but I only put more cracks in my glasses. Got the neighbors angry. Pulled all the muscles in my shoulder, pulled all my eyelashes out but forgot all the wishes, pulled all the letters out of the pouch in the basket on the dresser and put them back like nothing happened, but I swear something did. I swear I don’t swear enough and I don’t like fucking in dusty water-heater closets, I don’t like passing my heart out to strangers like a gospel tract,

I don’t like talking about you in 3rd person like she were dead, but I might as well do either, seeing as how I always find myself in bars these days, and you always find yourself behind them.  

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